C286 I Don't Want You to Leave
C286 I Don't Want You to Leave
This was not the first time Yang Xinxin said this to me.
Previously, in Yang Xinyi's room, Yang Xinxin had also said it in front of Yang Xinyi. This was the most sincere expression in Yang Xinxin's heart.
It was just the same sentence but I could tell that there was a different feeling.
Previously, it could be said that she was forced to a limit and had no choice but to vent her emotions. But now, it was a genuine confirmation.
Yang Xinxin seemed to have confirmed the feelings in her heart once again.
In these few days, Yang Xinxin did not live with us. On one hand, it was because of Yang Xinxin's own body. On the other hand, Yang Xinxin wanted to give herself some time alone. Think about our current situation.
Although she said those words on impulse the last time, was it really the feelings in her heart?
Yang Xinxin did not know, and even said that Yang Xinxin felt a little lost.
When she was by this big boy's side, she would feel very happy. When she was in bed, she would also feel like she was about to go crazy.
But after that kind of carefree feeling, what was left was an indescribable emptiness.
That was a kind of emptiness in his heart. It was not something that any physical impulse could make up for.
The joy in her physical body might be able to make Yang Xinxin forget the emptiness in her heart for a short period of time, but it could never fill that ravine.
Yang Xinxin did not know what was going on with her and why her heart was so chaotic. She had clearly expressed the feelings in her heart, but why... Why did she feel so uncomfortable in her heart?
That's right.
That's right...
Yang Xinxin had actually always been very clear about this.
Even if she told others clearly that she liked this man, Yang Xinxin still knew that their identities were different.
This man was her brother-in-law.
This was a fact that she could not change no matter what.
Regardless of whether there was any relationship between his sister and this man, this was the truth. Even if it was just a fake, this man was still his brother-in-law.
Even if his sister expressed that she did not care, he was not her real lover anyway. However, the gap between their identities still existed.
The most important thing was that although Yang Xinxin understood that she had expressed her feelings for this man, what kind of feelings did this man have for her?
Did this man love her as much as she loved him?
Yang Xinxin did not know.
Last time, Yang Xinxin did not hear the answer from this man. Yang Xinxin was also afraid to hear that answer. If that answer was... If it was not the answer that she wanted, Yang Xinxin did not know what was in her heart. Was she able to withstand that kind of impact? That kind of feeling... It would probably make her collapse.
Because of this, Yang Xinxin forced herself to forget about this worry. Every time they met, her face would be filled with that kind of gentle smile. Every time she was happy, she would completely forget everything else. They were just enjoying it to their heart's content.
But forgetting things didn't mean that these things didn't exist. On the contrary, because the accumulated time was getting longer and longer, that kind of emotional worry... And that kind of fear also became more and more intense in Yang Xinxin's heart. It made Yang Xinxin more and more unable to bear it.
But at this time, when she encountered danger... This man hugged her tightly in his arms, holding a steel pipe. He was like a wild beast, fighting in front of him.
When she saw the purple-green lump on this man's back and the blood that seeped out from his back, Yang Xinxin felt her heart palpitate intensely.
Yang Xinxin once again confirmed the feelings in her heart.
She liked this man and she loved this man.
This was the other half that she had always longed for. A person who could protect her, no matter what kind of storm it was outside, would always have a broad chest to cover her.
This was the love that Yang Xinxin wanted, the love that belonged to Yang Xinxin.
Perhaps, that was not a pure love, but a reliance?
But so what? The so-called reliance, in Yang Xinxin's heart, was love.
Everyone's understanding of love was different. To Yang Xinxin, this was the love that she had longed for for a long time. Whether or not this man loved her like she loved him. Her love for this man would never change.
It turned out that he had been thinking about such a boring thing all along.
Whether this man loved him or not, it didn't matter at all. As long as he loved this man, wouldn't it be enough?
Tears rolled down the corners of his eyes.
I feel that my back is wet.
Regarding Yang Xinxin's current condition, I was somewhat worried.
My body twisted slightly, but I was also worried that it would be too big of a move. If I accidentally get Qianqian off my body, it would be very bad.
"Qianqian, what's wrong with you?" I asked in a low voice, "Did you get hurt just now?"
The corner of Yang Xinxin's mouth curled up slightly, revealing two sharp canine teeth. She smiled lightly, "No... Ah, Little Chen, I love you..."
"You just said it." I felt a little strange.
What exactly is going on with Qianqian today? I feel that she's a lot worse than usual.
"You, do you love me?" Qianqian suddenly asked.
Even though Yang Xinxin would not change the feelings in her heart even if she heard the cruelest answer, as a woman, she still wanted to hear that sentence.
Although she would not be sad, she longed for happiness.
I fell silent.
Love?
Even now, I don't know what the so-called love is.
I really don't know, do I love Yang Xinxin? Do I love Xia Yu? Do I love Lin Xueying? Do I love Yang Xinyi?
"I don't know. I really don't know." I said quietly.
"Really?"
"Yes, although I don't know what love is, but..."
"I don't want you to leave me..." I said softly, perhaps this is just a pure possessive desire, nothing more.
"If you leave my side, I might go crazy. I don't want you to leave, I don't want to see you get hurt. I want to see the smile on your face. I want to see it forever... forever."